Crapping 101 #4 --> Love, Seemed pretty believable now...

"Every moment spend with you is a moment I treasure, and every kiss you give will be the only one I would ever remember."

It's pretty believable now and I'm starting to trust. His eyes showed me love. The way he treated me, the way he cared for me, they way he talks to me, I'm starting to fall deeper and deeper, I'm starting to trust him, I'm starting to believe that this is all real. Is that a good thing? Hmm...


The best part was just waking up in the morning, and he was the first thing I saw. OMG, I will cherish that forever. Shit, this is getting to deep, right? Damn, I'm always stupid when I'm in love.


Scared? Yeah, I'm scared like shiet, but this is life, if I get heartbroken again, so what? That's life right? And life moves on, eventhough it will be hard like a metal beam, but eventually, I will move on. But I hope it will last long. Last forever? I don't know. We're two different people from two different religion. Yeah, eventhough my culture is more to Indian culture, but, what he asked me before, replays on my mind. If I were to marry a non-muslim, will he willingly want to convert? I mean, to me, if dah sampai tahap nak kawen tu, kena lah convert, tapi itu lain2 punya hal, itu belakang cerita lah bro...HaHaHa...


Wait, why the fuck on earth am I thinking about all this kawen shiet? WTF? Chillax lah Rock Chiq, today baru genap sebulan dia bergelar boyfriend. Haihh..But, wait, I'm just too screwed up and messed up, will he even think of marrying me? Nah, I think I'm too messed and screwed up that no one would ever wanna marry me. Hmmm...


Yes pitiful readers, I'm super messed up, fucked up, screwed up, ahh, all the UPS lah..No freaking way anyone would want to spend their lifetime with me, what more Mr. Sunshine. Haihhh...


But yeah, anywayz, let's talk about now lah, he's just so bloody sweet. Or maybe because there weren't any guys yang treated me like that. Or maybe coz he's matured enough, not like those younger kids I use to date. Or maybe because I changed? I mean, seriously, I had so many kekurangan back then when it comes to love, but I'd rather not say it here. HeHeHe.


Eh, anyway, these past few days was the best days of my life of having a boyfriend lah weh..Chilling with his friends (MEREKA SANGAT AWESOME OK!!), chilling till so late (OMG, FREEDOM!!), spending time with HIM..Ahh, sangat hebats lah! Nanti nak ajak mereka2 datang lepak kat gazebo rumah lah :) Cuma pity lah, no alcohols allowed..LMFAO~


Haih, now here comes the sad part, he's leaving tomorrow :'( I feel like crying actually, tapi xboleh, kena control macho. HaHaHa..BTW, I love his family, they are so cool. His mom and his dad, sangat baek. Hmm..And I love the fact that my Mr.Sunshine is a workaholic and familyholic, it's not easy to find a guy like that these days occay! His flight is at 1pm tomorrow, I will be at work then. I wish I was rich, that I didn't have to work, and I can fly across the sea to him anytime. DAYMN!!


Oh, is it normal for guys to not say 'love you' and is it normal for girls to always say 'love you'? But these days, I noticed since he don't say it, I seldom say it too. Hmm. But I love him, I know my heart does. And I can see it in his eyes that he loves me too. Lagi satu, macam banyak je persamaan antara me and him. Hmm, aneh bangat sih..Takut juga lah. Tapi, xpe lah, just go with the flow lah kan? Kalau ada jodoh, ada lah. Kalau xda, xpe, move on sudahhh..hahaha...


Shiet, gwe cinta bangat sama dia. Dan gwe sayang bangat sama teman2nya. Gwe juga sayang sama keluarganya. Dan anjingnya si Tiger. HaHaHa...Gimana ini sih..Gawat neh, gawat...Udah terjatuh cinta lagi. Waduh...


Eh, why on earth I'm suddenly speaking indo language? LMFAO~


Alright, before I crap on more shiet, let's end it here for now.


u kno u love me,
-x.o.x.o.-

Crapping 101 #3 --> Let's talk about the four lettered word...

Let's talk about the four lettered word that people like to use so much..No, it's does not start with a F or a S…It's L.O.V.E. Yeap, let's talk about love.

When you hear the word love, what is the first thing that comes to your mind? When you think about love, what is your first thought? Is it sex? That's what most men or women think about these days. Coz they use their vagina and penis to think.

What I think about love? Well, let's see. First I would think of my dead cat, Abang Arrow, the one and only true love of my life. Then I would think of the love for God. Then I would think of the love my parents gave to me, and the love I have for them. Lastly, I would think about my future husband (whoever that will be, if I would have one).

My future husband. Can he love me purely? Can he give his whole heart to me? 100%.. I want a man who can love and treat me good. Who does not think with his penis. Who would be madly deeply in love with me, to the extend that when he tells me he loves me, I can see it in his eyes; I can hear his heart cry. Do they really exist these days? LOL. Well, and of course, he thinks about me every now and then. He would go crazy if he didn't meet me for at least a minute each day, and would die if he did not listen to my voice. I want a man that I can rely to, who can hear my heart out, who just knows me so well more than I know my true self. Well then, does such human being exist these days? Seriously…

I know, I know, that does not exist, and that's just bullshiet. HaHaHa..It would be nice if they did exist eh? HaHaHa.. Anyway, yeah, that's what I think about love or what I want from the word love.

Hmmm….

Well, mr. sunshine? Fuhhh… Yeah, he's sweet, I got pissed at him the other day. I should not have wrote my previous post. Since that night after the talk, till this very second, day 2, he had not said a word to me, talked to me, replied my text. :'( And I have been very sad since. So, do I love him? Hmm…I think I do. All I know is that I think about him, I'm worried coz I don't know if he's pissed at me now, or he's just busy, I can't wait to see him, but I'm scared too at the same time..Shiet, I miss him.

Ha, I can't write anymore, brain has gone jammed up because he's on it all the time. Hmm..

U kno u love me,

-x.o.x.o.-

Crapping 101 #2 --> Pissed Is what I'm feeling right now!

The chat on skype last night got me thinking alot. Seriously, ALOT...

What do men want? What the hell do they actually want? I got to figure that out..

Well, why can't he see what I'm doing, what I do for him? Why can't he understand that I just want to spend one whole day with him, even if that means just lying there beside him? Why can't he spend 1 and a half day with me, and 1 and a half day with his family? That's all that I'm asking. He made me start thinking that it's true what I have thought of all these while, that men just want to use me. Why? Why are men so evil and cruel? Occay, not all, but maybe the ones I meet...Why can't they fall madly deeply in love with me, like how I'm madly deeply in love with them? Or do that only happen in fairytales? 

Damn, I just don't get it. He became my boyfriend a day before he left for oversea. Now, after a month, I get to be with him again, tu pun 3 days jer kot, then he's gonna go off again. Is it so hard to just please a lady? Haihhh...I totally respect his decision of wanting to spend time with his family, but, how bout me? I wanna spend time with him too. Oh, maybe the question here is, does he want to spend time with me? Some good quality time..Not just to do it, but to just spend time together, like true lovers? Damn, are we even true lovers? LOL..

Shiet people, all I want is just to spend some time with him. But what he said last night, had got me thinking alot.

This is so not fair. Why does my love life always suck? Why do men always treat me so badly? How many times of hurt I have to go through till I'm finally feel happiness? Maybe I will go to work now. Haihh...I just want to feel love. Yes, I crave for love and attention. This is what happens when that stupid shit people chase after so badly, yeap, MONEY, ruins your family. Then your parents would be so busy thinking about how the fuck to find money, they forget you. They forget they once had a baby whom they gave so much attention to. Yeap mom and dad, fuck my tears flowing like a river now, maybe all the shit I did was just to win your attention! URGH!

Now I'm fucking pissed. Last night I slept feeling fucking pissed too. Fuck, and work, shit, it's getting on my nerves too. I did not fucking stayed in college, finish my fucking diploma program, just to be some pirate ok, yeap, if the police found out, they would put me behind bars, coz I copy so many CDs at work. Is that the job of a graphic designer? FUCK!!

Shit, this love, the love this time, had made me loose my mind. Is it because I really love? If so, DAMN LOVE then.

But seriously, what he said, had got me thinking so much. Am I some person you come to when you need me, then leave as you like? Hmmm...

Sorry readers, sorry for all the swearing...

Btw, if u're my aunty, my uncle, my cousin, my siblings, my lover, my friends, my what the fuck whoever, this is the only place I get to let my feelings out. So fuck you if you think you're gonna go behind my back bitching about me, or turning my blog into a gossip topic. Coz you don't know the fuck I go through in life. So fuck off and just shut after reading! Thank you. After all, no one is perfect. And of all person, I'm just crap.

u kno u love me,
-x.o.x.o.-

Crapping 101 #1 --> New day of crap begins...

Well well, it's a new title now. Done with bullshitting 101, now it's time for crapping 101..LOL...


So, here it goes again, all the crappy thoughts that comes in my head, that goes straight to my awesome blog, yeap, I think it's awesome, just like me. LMFAO~


The other day, this lovely girl, my cousin, said that I'm cool. HaHaHa..Wow, apparently, I'm cool. So nice to have people adoring me. NgEeEeE...


Yesterday, my friend read my blog for the first time, and he asked me, who am I. Wow, does my blog really speak the true me? Hmm..


This guy who's my boyfriend, shit, I think I'm in love with him. This feeling is weird. From all my past so called love life, this time, this feeling is weird. Is it because I'm more mature now? Or because my heart has been guarded by all the pain men has caused? But yet, I still feel like a child. HaHaHa. But then, today, there was this tiny voice in my head again..I just have to blog about it..I heard it saying, "Shit, I love sunshine, and I feel sad already. One day I will be heartbroken again. He too, will leave me, just like all the other man I loved. I wish he could stay and be the one..." Yeap, that sick voice. Sometimes I wonder if that sick voice is me, or some evil psycho person living in me. Weird.


Hey, don't you think it's weird, that I just think alot? Sometimes I feel like WTF? Why can't my brain stop thinking just for a second? I even think when I sleep. Urgh~


Oh, continue back my story.. So yeah, I love the fact that it has been 3days now that we skype. Lack of sleep, ahh, who cares. HaHaHa. I feel so good when I get to see him. Sometimes, I feel like I wanna gigit him so badly, coz he's sooo cute. Hey, when I say cute, it does not always mean the looks ok, it's the attitude. He won my heart, yeap, with his cute attitude. Oh dear, I miss him so much eventhough I see him on webcam. HaHaHa.


Well, it's just 4 days more now, till he comes back, for ONLY THREE BLOODY DAYS, but uh-ha, 3 days still counts right? Rather than not coming back at all. NgEeEe...But I wonder, will I see him again after he goes back there? HmMmM...I wish I could see him everyday, snuggle in bed with him each night, wake up in the morning seeing his face, and him, being the last person I see before I sleep - eh, sounds like husband jer..LMFAO~


Nah, I don't think there is a single human being out there who would ever wanna marry me. I'm lost weh, confuse child I am. Not forgetting, damn complicated, I mean, the wires in my brain has all tangled up kinda complicated. I'm actually a pretty simple person. I think. HaHaHa. Since I have a strong feeling that I won't marry a malay guy, I wonder what's the process of a non muslim converting to be a muslim. Hmm..No, I can't ask my mom how dad converted. You crazy? HaHaHa.


Oh fuck, ZOMG, so, I have been doing some workouts since last week. Jog, sit ups and now, dance on the dance mat with PS2. And damn, I lost 4 KGs. Na'ah, hell no, I ain't telling you my weight. HeHeHe. No one can know that, and no one knows. LOL. But weh, I'm so excited lah. 4 KGs look like a small figure, but it means big to me weh. See, I just have to go thin, occay, maybe not thin, but I want the figure I had back in highschool. The perfect size, perfect weight. HaHaHa. Plus, I gotta look good you know. HeEhEe...


Anywayz, got to go now. Feel like this craps are all really starting to sound like crap. Hah. See what I mean. LOL.


u kno u love me,
-x.o.x.o.-

bullshitting 101~#101 -->Insecurity and LOVE again..NgEeEe~

Is it weird to be scared?


Yes, that's the line I want to start this blog with. Hmm. 


Sometimes I feel like I'm going to grow old alone, die alone in my house, with my cats just being around me. Or are they going to leave me too?


Insecure is what I feel. Insecure of myself, insecure of life, insecure of love, insecure of everything. I feel so scared. Yeap, I had just too much bad experiences in life. Maybe to some other people, it's just a small thing, but to me, it's a big deal. For instance, love. When I love, I really love, I don't look at other man. But why can't these people I have loved before look at all that? Why can't they see me for who I am? Just like my family. Hmm.


The reason why I choose to love animals with all of my heart? Because they don't judge me. They accept me. I'm fat, I'm a mood swinger, I don't know what I want to be in life, but they don't care about all that. Because, they see through me, they don't judge me. They make me so happy. Everyone else just choose to judge me all the time, they don't see right through me.


Shit, occay, let's get back to my main topic. Yeah, maybe I'm a big coward who just pretend that I'm fine, I'm strong and that I have control. Maybe I like to be in control cause it's a distraction.


Urgh, shit, what am I crapping about? Is this it? Is this what being an adult is? This sick feelings I feel in my chest? If in that case, being an adult is full of crap.


Anyway, happy thoughts, happy thoughts...Oh, shit, I think I accidentally fell in love..Oh no, am I going to feel another heart breaking moments? Coz I'm really so sick and tired of it.. It seriously does hurt occay readers. Please, don't say love, if you don't love. Easy. Don't pretend, don't be a faker. I mean, it hurts so much, I think it's even worse that being hit by a fast track train. Eh, but for now, fine fine, they can say I'm having love-sick/angau, or whatever shit they wanna call it. So what? I am, just  human being kan? God created love among us all. 


Oh no, I really feel so sorry for you readers, coz I'm talking crap again. HaHaHa..


Eh, 30th November 2011, would be 1 month I've been dating him. Insecure, honestly, yeah, there's just insecurity in this relationship. Maybe coz it's too early. Eh, what rubbish am I talking, macam cari suami jer. LMFAO~ I think I'm just too complicated for anyone to even think of marrying me. He's too awesome, he's perfect to me..But yeah, who cares about all the other stuff, he makes my heart beat, he makes me feel alive again, he makes me feel the air rubbing against my skin, he is my sunshine, and I love him. ;P


Occay, I think right now, this very second, I don't even know if I'm awake or asleep. I have only slept for 2 hours. Blergh...I'm gonna take a shower and sleep..Oh I miss him so much..Yeay yeay, not including today, it's only 5 days more!!!I can't wait... :) As son as I see him at the airport, I'm gonna just hug him so hard, and kiss him soooo hard, like there's just two of us left in this world. Ngeee heee hee....


u kno u love me,
-x.o.x.o.-

bullshitting 101~#100 --> Feeling Psyched!!! and some other weird shietzos..

Zomg, I'm psyched!!!

Yesterday, 20.11.2011, he came online and we talked on skype. YES, webcammmm!!! Damn, I was so happy, I was smiling all the time, till my cheek hurts. LOL. We started skyping about 12am I think, till 3am.

*Sayang, if you are reading this, yes, I just have to update my blog. HA-HA.

I'm just sooooo happy that I was able to see him; I just miss him so much. Wow, being able to see his smile again, his eyes, and his tattoo, just being able to see him, I'm going GA-GA already lah. Even till today, when the thoughts of last night comes on my mind (which is most of the time), I'd just smile, and my heart bounces.

He just makes my heart beats so fast. I don't remember when the last a guy make my heart beats fast, maybe never. Hmm...Being in this relationship with him, is just so exciting, I don't know why. Maybe because it's him, the guy I liked when I was 14. Like seriously, WOAH! I bet he gets that alot, a girl liking him, I mean, who wouldn't like him. HaHaHa. Oh dear, I feel so bubbly now.

He's my sunshine, like that song "Sunshine in my window, that's what you are, my shining star..Making me feel, I'm on top of the world..."

Now, it's just 7 days more, till I get to see him for real again, and even though he's just gonna be here for 3 days, I will use all the time I can to be with him. But I know, family is important as well, I mean, if I was the one coming back from somewhere, I would want to spend some quality time with my family too, so I totally understand if he wants to do so. Like what the law of relationship says, 'give and take'...HeHeHe..

Shiet, I only have 250 bucks left in my bank. How how? DAMN, why must my pay only comes in on the 5th of each month? See, this job is just too far that I have no savings at all at the end of the day. I mean, seriously readers, why do we work, when at the end of the day, you don't get to save any money? Hmm..There's just so much things to pay...Car loan, Study loan, Car petrol, Tolls after tolls, Food, Ciggs, and just some money for chilling out with friends. I don't even shop, yet, no savings. Yes, I'm not like other girls, I actually hate shopping. It's a total waste of time. I usually shop when I know that I need something new. Am I weird? I don't think so..hmm..

Anyway, yesterday, I went to a job fair in PWTC, damn, it's just soooo government. No job opening for graphic designer. WTF right? I'm so gonna find a job somewhere away from Malaysia. I think Bandung is a nice place to work in, since I like Bandung. That's it, my target for this week, go online and search for job openings in Bandung, USofA and Singapore.

Oh dear, now that song by Jessie J "It's all about the money, money, money...", is playing in my head. Why must the world be all about money? Why is it so crucial to have money? What happened to happiness, love and peace? Why is money so important? URGH..If you have been following my whole blog since day 1, I'm sure you'd know that I HATE MONEY. Yeap, I hate money, no, wait, hate is a little less strong word, correction, I DESPISE MONEY! Money was the cause that torn my family apart, I mean, not really apart, but money was the cause of my family not being a family anymore.

Ha, I don't even get it when my mom want's me to marry someone who's well paid off. No, if she wants that, then she can marry them, cause at the end of the day, I just want a man who can make me happy, even if I have to live in a super small house, as long as he can feed me, and make me happy, that's enough. Plus, you work for money, you work hard, you get more. So, yeah, duit boleh dicari lah...

Oh, talking about marriage, my maid told me that my mom is worried of me. My mom went telling my aunties that she's worried of me, being single, after work, straight home, where got time to find a boyfriend. HA-HA. Good for her, she should be worried, who asked her to always not let me out to venture the world. But what she says is not true lah, I am not single, HeHeHe, but nah, I would never tell my parents if I'm seeing someone, until I'm assured that the guy is 'the one'. I just don't like the idea of telling them, then what if it don't work out, then what? Right? So, I will keep pretending, till I feel that the man I found will be the one. But it's kinda scary also, I mean, how do you know if that is the one? Oh readers who are married, can you tell me how you knew that the man you married was the one? For instance, even my friend, who recently got engaged, she's not even sure if he's the one...See...So how do you find out if that's the one? LOL...

But what I know is, I don't think I can marry a Malay guy. I just can't click with their minds. Yes, I am a Malay, but I'm also 50% Indian, and my mind is 50% Western, like most people who knew me would say, 'Nathra is just too westernized'..LMFAO~ I have a feeling that I will marry a non-Muslim dude, or not get married at all. HaHaHa..But I like the idea of waking up in the morning, and the 1st thing I see is my man, the person I love, the person I'd share my life with, and he would be the last I see before I sleep, so, yeah, I have to get married. HaHaHa...

Anyway, I think this post is just toooo long now, I should stop bullshitting..And oh, just couple more post and it would end the days of 'bullshitting101'...Unbelievable yeah..LOL. Nevermind, I already have a new title post in mind, 'Crapping101'..HaHaHa... Well, till then, take good care of yourself aight readers. Will be updating soon again.

U kno u love me,

-x.o.x.o.-

Another post about L.O.V.E.

I'm just sitting here, in my new home, in d hall, thinking what to write other than the bloody word - L.O.V.E.


Oh crap. I think it's gonna still be about it. Pity you readers. LMFAO~


Here it goes again.


Last night, 18th November 2011, I cried myself to sleep. Thinking that maybe he don't love me, maybe he don't care about me, ahh, all those negative thoughts lah. See right, the thing is, when you are away from the one you love, and you finish work at 3.30pm, you head home and don't have anything to do, there will be a little voice psychoing you in your head. That's exactly what happens to me. So, I fell asleep. The next thing I know, it was 3.30am+ when I received a call from him. I think that was the 1st time we talked for that long. About 30 mins? He listened to me talking rubbish and crap. LOL. That's one of the things I love about him, he listens. No matter how tired he is, or if he was about to say something but I say something, he would let me talk. Sweet eh? Hmm..But I feel pity for him also lah, to have a girlfriend who talks too much. HA-HA. We talked till his credit finished, then I called him, talked till my credit finished. Felt so exited, till I can't sleep coz my heart was beating so fast. Yes baby, you made my heart beat so fast, you make me feel so alive :) And I went work late, thank God that Ranveer texted me at 8.45am, had a super quick shower, chuck all my clothes in my bag(returning home to kajang), and went for work. Note, my work starts at 8.30am on a Saturday, I was an hour late. HaHaHa...


I told him the truth. About what I felt. I had to let it out. Like I always believe, adults talk. They share their problems, they talk, to solve things out. 


Maybe all I need is that kot. A man who would just be there for me, always around me, if he's not around, at least call or text. It makes me happy. Like when we first started dating, he always calls and text me, and I felt so bubbly. When things started to change, I was always feeling so lonely. Hmm...Anyway, let's think things positive. Yes, eventhough there might be times when I would think positive, but what matters is, I have him, I love him and when he say he loves me, I believe him.


Neways, will update soon, got to go out now.


I love you readers!!

u kno u love me,
-x.o.x.o.-

What's up with me and the word love?

Honestly, I'm starting to feel the distance.

It was sooo sweet at first, yeah, I received numeral calls a day, text messages, but now, I'm loosing him to his job.

I just wanted a guy who would appreciate me and show that he really loves me. Hmm. What's happening? Is this normal?

Shiet, I think I just don't know how to be in a relationship. I feel like asking him to define what is 'in a relationship' is all about. Hmm. I wish he did not leave. I wish he got a job here, instead of there. But, if it wasn't because of him leaving, I would not have met him.

Fuck, fuckity fuck, I'm loosing my mind. Again, can long distance relationship work? FISHES IN D SEA mannn!!! LOL~

feeling so lost, where's that happiness i felt? hmm...

maybe coz now, im starting to think, if now he's so busy, only calls me once, don't really text anymore, and this relationship has only been for a month, how bout the other months to come? can i survive it? or am i gonna feel like shiet coz i would be missing him all d time and just swallowing it in my tummy and feel sick? hmm...

but i miss him. love? im not really sure if it's 100%. trust? i think there's only like 30% trust...hey, dont blame me for not trusting him ok, men made me be this way. all they want is just to use me and im also one bodoh case to just believe lah. haha.

well, maybe like he always say, and like my friends say too, just let time puts it all in place. i should just go with the flow right? yeap..i should..

sorry for over thinking about this matter. maybe i just did not want to get hurt again, just this once.

but damn, for the 1st time in my life, im changing, for a man. i started working out, not being anti-social again...ZOMG! haha..im such a spaz..haha..

newayz, im so psyched, he's gonna come back in just 10 days more, eventhough it's just for a very very very short time, but heck, at least i get to see him again :) yeay...can't wait to hug him, kiss him, and just stare into his eyes...*yes baby, ur eyes better be showing love.hahahaha...

u kno u love me,

-x.o.x.o.-

bullshitting 101~#99 --> The one and only love in my heart...

This is the story about my love, my life, my soul, my everything.

I’m still madly, deeply in love with my dead cat! Yeap, I don’t think, I can ever love a human being, the way I loved him. He was just too special.

"Arrow, you came into my life, changed my whole life, filled my heart from emptiness. It can never be complicated with you. The way you listened, the way you love, the way you care, I don’t think anyone can compete that. How special you are to me, how much you did for me, no one can ever imagine."

If Arrow was still alive, I would say that repeatedly. He was more than a best friend to me, he was my life. He meant the world to me.

Yes, he left me on the 7^th July of 2011, but till today, 17^th November 2011, I still cry thinking about him. I just miss him so much. I miss how he would actually lick my tears when I cry, it was like he was telling me, “Don’t cry, I’m here with you”. I also miss his smell, his soft fur, his breath, his love, his stubbornness, I just miss cuddling in bed with him, and how he would climb on me and sleep and I would have to stay in a position for a very long time.

I wish he was still alive. I want him with me, for as long as I breathe. I don’t need a man or a friend in my life, I just need Arrow. Because Arrow, would always be there for me, no matter what.

“Arrow, you will always be my one and only love, you are my one and only shining star.”

U kno u love me,

-x.o.x.o.-

bullshitting 101~#98 --> Love oh Love

Oh Love...


That four lettered word..Love oh Love..


Yes readers, I'm so effed up, I think I'm in love.


He's just so sweet. I feel like there's just more to know about him. And yes, I EFFING MISS HIM SO MUCH!! Why didn't we met sooner? Hmm...


Part of me is still finding it hard to believe that he's mine. Hmm. That's normal right? I mean, when you liked someone 11 years ago, and suddenly, the man becomes someone you call 'mine'..It's also weird when I have to say 'my boyfriend'...Maybe coz I've been single for a year plus..Hmm..


Well, I hope it won't be another same old lame short relationship. I hope it will last longer, can it? Long distance relationship, will it work? I think it can...Since I got no feelings for any other man, I believe this can work out well :)


Neways, dear readers, I think I'm officially having love sick. Even thinking about him makes me smile, WTF right? I wish he didn't have to go away... :'(


I can't wait for 28th November 2011...I have a feeling I won't be able to sleep right the night before lah..HA-HA... Grrrr, I miss him so much already...been 2 weeks since he left...Fuh!! I need a chill pill!!


u kno u love me,
-x.o.x.o.-