bullshitting 101~#97 --> WOAHHH!!!

Let me start with WOAHHH!!!

31st October 2011, is a day I thought will never happen. The guy I like since I was 14, is someone I can call MINE now?!?! WOAHH, unbelievable occay!! Seriously, simply unbelievable. I woke up today thinking it was all just a dream. 

*Sayang, if you are reading this, sorry, I just have to blog about it. LMAO~

But, sadly, why the hell didn't I meet him earlier? Why after 11 years, then only meet up again? And that is also what, 2 days before he leave? Ha ha ha..That song by Selena Gomez, I love you like a love song baby..That's the song..Hmm..Well, it is sad lah, but not to the extend that I could cry..LOL~ But yeah, he's mine, but, he left to another country. DAYMNNN ok!

Yes yes, I know what I have always said about love before this, but it's still the same ok, I have changed, I find it hard to fully trust, like I said, I still can't believe I'm his. I still pretty much think it's a dream. Sayang, I'm dreaming right? haha..

Well, he will be back for a while in 29 days. Fuh.. Sabar Nathra, sabar.. Pejam celik pejam celik jer.. Eh, but weird, fine, this Rock princess has confidence issues occay. I wonder what he likes about me. I'm so not hot, he's so cute, I'm so boyish, he's so hot, I'm crazy AND psycho, he's cool, I'm like a gangster wannabe weh, W.E.I.R.D.~

It's cool.. Let's see how things goes. So far, I think he can layan my kegilaan, so, that's cool.. See right readers, Im just sick of always meeting men who just don't appreciate me, don't appreciate my love and things that I do for them. They just use me. I'm sick of all this short2 shietzos relationship. I wanna feel what it feels like to be in a long relationship, to fight, to love, to go dating, to understand each other, to share each other's life, to do things together, to be able to walk around holding hands and not worrying about what people would say or think. .So, we'll see how nice sayang can be, how he treats me, how he loves me, how he can tahan my kepale, and stuff lah ;)

Like I said in the post titled 'mommy i wanna get married', 

"Can he love more than how I love him? Can he be the perfect father to my children? Can he be a great husband for me? I want a man who can love me, who can treat me right, who can take care of me like how my parents did, who can respect me, who can accept me the way I am, who will always be there for me no matter what, who will give me all the attention (LOL, I love attention...), who loves animals just like how I do, and who's not afraid to tell me straight to my face and never hide things from me."

So, yeap...occay, I think I typed a little too much of bullshits..HAHA..moving on to the next topic...

Deepavali 2011, I felt weird, not waking up in the morning to go visit Apuchi...that was what I did for 24 years of my life, and now, not anymore.. I forgot to ask dad if he was fine...Hmm.. I miss Apuchi..I really never thought I would cry at a funeral, and to miss a family member. Hmmm...

And Abang Arrow(my cat), owh how I miss him so bloody much, only God would know..I wish I could hug him again, kiss him again, smell him again, just rest my head on his tummy, sleeping with him, hear him meow, taking a walk with him, oh i miss how he would just follow behind me when i call him to walk down the hill with me..He's such an angel..I think he was an angel, sent by God, to make me happy for 9 years.. :) Sometimes I wonder, is there heaven and hell for animals? If so, is my son in heaven? Hmm...If only I could whisper to his ears again like back then, saying that I love him so much and how thankful I was that he was in my life... :'(

Work, I feel like those big big ones above me, are going against me, always rejecting my work, always scolding me, saying things behind my back and shiet...WTJACK lah weh.. come tell me straight to my face lah.. Look,  I JUST HATE LIARS ok...I SIMPLY CANNOT STAND PEOPLE LYING TO ME..I rather have people telling me the truth, even though it hurts like shiet..You lie, You die...LMAO~ Apparently, they're just so effing fake. Haihh...P.L.A.S.T.I.C.S.H.I.E.T.Z.O.S.!.!.

Newayz, that's a really long update bout me eh. Ha ha ha..Owh, I miss Mr. Sunshine so much already and it has only be like what, few hours ago...LMAO~

*Sayang, I hope you will be my shinning star.. ;) What that means? Well, that's for me to know, for you to go figure...HA HA~ p/s: the way you kiss me, I know it's not a lie...

u kno u love me,

-x.o.x.o.-

bullshitting 101~#96 --> Update on Abang Arrow...

This one is a sad one.


Note the post I posted on the July, 03 of 2011. Abang Arrow was sick then.


Did God answered to my prayers? Of me wishing that God would stop his pain and sufferings? Hmm...Maybe..But was I really ready to have let him go? Read up.


July, 07th, 2011. Abang Arrow drew his last breath at 9.20ish. I cried that whole night. I managed to hold him and talked to him before he left forever. I told him to go, that he will be at peace if he left.


July, 08th, 2011. At about 10.30am, he was buried. That's it, my baby, my life, was gone forever. It was a Friday morning, and I missed out work, for him. He was truly the one and only love of my life.


October, 22nd, 2011. I still very much misses him till bits and pieces. I still secretly cry at night, cry myself to sleep. I miss him so much. I want him so badly, I miss his smell, his fur, his face on my face. Haih. All those memories.


Pern my friend, had told me that her cat, Muffin, had passed on too, recently. Owh dear. I know how she would feel. Hmm. Only, I felt it alot, because of the SO MANY CATS i've been having. He He He.


Well, I just pray so hard now, that my 7 babies will be alright and live as long as I live. Owh, did I mention, I rescued 3 cats. 1 cat from the road near Nad's apartment, 2 kittens (which 1 I kept, 1 I gave to the staff at the vet's office), and recently, found 1 kitten, so weak, abandoned at my home. I think, rescued is my favourite breed! :) But I love my other 4 babies too. He He He. I love all of them equally!


u kno u love me,
-x.o.x.o.-