Crapping 101 #62 - What a weird story...

Sometimes I wonder, is it hard to tell the world that you're taken? Rather than leading them into thinking that you're single and totally date-able? And I don't get it... How is it possible that you can love a person, but treat them like they don't mean anything to you...

How weird...

Once there was a question... "If I change, will you still love and accept me?' The answer was 'yes, till my last breath.'

Then bit by bit, the questioner changed, changed and changed till the answerer hardly know the questioner, but yet, holding on to what God has given to the answerer, the answerer still loved the questioner. Yet, deep in the answerer's heart, answerer just wanted to be appreciated, to be loved, to be acknowledge, and that the questioner would feel proud to be seen walking in public with the answerer... But the questioner never made any sign or statement that the questioner would marry the answerer one day...

Yet, the answerer could only pray to God and wait... As times tick away, each day seems rather painful as the questioner never had thoughts of introducing answerer to questioner's parents. That meant a huge thing - it means questioner is not interested in her.

But odd, that questioner still have love for answerer in his eyes when they met. But most of the time, cold, cold was all answerer felt from questioner. Yet, once upon a time ago, the questioner was the warmth of answerer's heart, questioner was the knight in all answerer's fairytale.

Now, there might be some trouble, as the answerer's mother has been talking about the questioner alot. The mother likes the questioner alot, yet the questioner might not know of, that the mother has been secretly praying that the answerer would end up being married to the questioner.

Haih... Pitiful story... but weird at the same time...LOL

Aren't I a pretty awesome story teller? Jeng Jeng Jeng...

u kno u love me,
-x.o.x.o.-

Crapping 101 #61 - What the man I love has done to me

Yes. Love.

I remember back then when I use to hate love, cursed it, never wanted to love ever again. But that all changed when one day, God answered my prayer.

Yeah, so I found love then. Been loving him for 360 days now, 5 days more to being 1 year together. My goal is to be with him till death do us apart. Why? Because he can guide me to the road of Allah. Yes. I never had thoughts I would be what I am today.

I am with hijab, trying to pray 5 times a day, installed an apps of how to read jawi, been thinking of going for reciting the Quran classes, have feelings of going to pray at the mosque, and I went for terawih the other day.

Most of my friends who knew in and out about me, couldn't believe their eyes seeing me with hijab. What more those who knows me but not close, and those who just know my face. And I have received support from some of them, compliments, and so on. I told Miss U (my bestie) that if everyone actually kept saying what they say, it might actually come true. LOL. Yes, I'm pretty sure you are wondering what they said - pretty. HaHaHa.

Anyways, I am blessed, that Allah has sent this man, to me, to guide me. I hope too that Allah has planned my whole life with him ahead of us. And most of all, I am blessed that Allah has never given up on me.

I hope He will forgive my sins and hating him before :(

u kno u love me,
-x.o.x.o.-

Quote101 #1

"Sometime I wish I could know what he is thinking about so I could do better..."