newsflash bout ied 2!

well, an anonymous person asked me 'so what happened to ied?'

so here i am, answering...

its been 5months:
-9th March 2009: 5months since i last saw ied
-13th March 2009: 5months since i last heard from ied

well,does that answer u?
ok..i am still,waiting,but i was also being a bitch,i dated other guys too at the same time..
till yesterday,i realized that the reason to this behavior is because i am angry at ied, because i love him and miss him so much, but im mad coz im being abandon, and with all my stupid messed up shitty problems, i need him the most right now.

so anyway,
2more months to go, i will still wait..after all, ive waited for 5months, how can 2more months hurt me,rite?

hope this post answer your question. will update if got news..hehehe...

and,thanks for reading my blog!

accidentally fell...

accidentally...
I EFFING ACCIDENTALLY FELL...

that new friend of mine,
i accidentally fell...

and now,
IM HURT..
im so hurt inside..
my soul is suffering..

have you readers ever felt it before?that u have a new opposite site best friend,and u like that person at first,but u know that person has a person whom he/she love,and u know that u r not his type,and u know not even in a million years he will fall for u,and he's the perfect person,he's great,nice,awesome,and somehow,both of u share the very same interest in alot of things,THEN,suddenly,one stupid day,u realized that u have fallen in love with that person,but u cant tell that person how u feel about him/her,but then u effing hurt inside,so pain,ur soul is crying hard,u feel sad n depressed,and deja jealous.......

im going through that hard pain right now..
and trust me,
it hurts so bad..

the worst part is,
i am still hanging on as a bestfriend,
seeing him on the phone with his girl,
talking to me about his girl...

but deep inside me,
i prayed so hard,
wishing he will fall for me too....

my new friend...

i have a friend...
a new friend...
he's great,
he's perfect,
he's everything anyone cud ever dream of..
he's nice,
he's sweet,
he's just so amazing..

but...
im not his type,
i know he will never fall for me..
plus,
he's just so amazing,
our friendship is just so perfect,
i dont think i wanna screw it up...

but somehow,
i wanna be the one in his heart,
somehow,
i pretend to be fine when he talks about his girlfriend...
somehow,
i really enjoy hanging out with him,
somehow,
not talking to him in one day feels soooo wrong,
somehow,
i feel thankful i got to know him..

now i feel pissed,
coz his gf treats him badly...
coz he's just so great and perfect..
he shud be appreciated...

eventhough he's not my boyfriend,
but he sure treat me like he is my boyfriend...

he's like iedrus..
exact!!

i hope im not in love with him, yet...till whenever..

hurmppp....