Sunday, February 27, 2011

bullshitting 101~#88 - The Big $$, it changed humans.

All these while, I've always said that life is cruel, that life is evil. But now, after growing up, I change my mind. Life is not cruel, the people in it are cruel. My sister once told me that there's no nice people in this world, and that this is a man eat man world. What she said is certainly true. Everyone has something to achieve, something they want, therefore, they are willing to choose to hurt their friends, their loved ones, their family. I hope I wont be one of those cruel ones. I hope each time I forget, God will always remind me to come back to my senses.

Sometimes I feel pity for those who tend to forget about love, life and God. All they see are the big $$ in front of them. What happened to humans? What made them be who they are? I am going to start work soon, but I'm not working for the money. But then, when I start thinking about the responsibilities I have, to pay for my study loan, to pay for my car, my babies(cats) food, my toiletteries, my bills, OMG, somehow after all the calculation, it feels like it's never enough. "Is that is?" I asked myself. Am I going to be one of those who will be blinded by the big $? Oh gosh..

As long as we remember who we are once, and always pray for guidance from God, hopefully, Godwilling, we wont be blind. I pray for myself and every single human being living in this world. Then maybe the world would be a beautiful place to live in again.

Think about it.

u kno u love me,
-x.o.x.o.-

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

bullshitting 101~#87 - All in 1 (update)

So, I've been feeling pretty low since 29th January 2011.

The story goes like this.....

28th January 2011 - Tash(my sister) came back for a holiday from AbuDhabiBaby..Felt sooo happy getting to see her again..LOL..

29th January 2011 - This day, I can never forget. Tash accompanied me to Rozana's wedding. Then, we dropped by home, pick Arrow(my cat) up and went to the vet. At 5.30pm, we were already back home, talking to dad, asking about how Apuchi(my grandma) is cause she's not well. At that time too, dad received a call from my aunty's maid, saying that Apuchi is gone. :'( Then we all rushed to Damansara from Kajang in 2 different cars. Yeap, she left forever on this date. My grandma, who would be turning 100 years old this March 2011, died. I was so sad. On the 30th January 2011, was her funeral, she was cremated this day. For the 1st time in my life, I cried at a funeral. I love my Apuchi so much. She was so kind to us sisters. I remember when we were little, she took care of us cause our parents was away, she was forcing us to sleep, and Nadia influenced Tash to not sleep. Then they called me, and I ran along with them, locked ourselves in a room, and Apuchi was screaming outside the door. Then Nadia unlocked the door and jumped up to our double decker bed. Apuchi couldnt reach us, but I remember clearly, she was screaming and scolding us with a thin cane(yeap,my mom always kept canes at home). Oh how naughty we were. But hey, I was influenced ok!!LOL..Apuchi was also so generous. Oh dear, I miss her alot..Hmm..Since January 29th, I've been so lazy to come online, cried alone alot, been feeling lost too. Haihh..

Hmmmm.......

8th February 2011 - I went for another interview, at Fairview International School. WOAH. They were so impressed with my photography skill. Wow, I felt so proud that day, I swore I could have jumped like crazy at that time, but I couldnt. LOL.

Dont remember date - Iedrus texted me. Few days before, I sent him a text thanking him for the good times we had last time. I also did mention that I won't text him anymore. So then he texted me back few days later. He also said that he still loves me and stuff. Oh, I also got to hear his voice again. He changed. He sounded more mature and fierce. LOL. Anyway, that night, felt soooo good, laughing and talking and texting with him. But then, the next day, and the next day, and the next day, till now, he went silent again. WTF right? Damn weird lah he. URGH~ Piss the hell out of me!

12th February 2011 - Tash left back to AbuDhabiBaby, back to her working life. Haihh..No more doshing partner, no more roommate, no more laughing gang. Damn...

14th February 2011 - The day couples love soo much. BLERGH~ So called Valentine's day. Lots of Muslim couples were caught on this day too. Tsk Tsk..Ape nak jadi dengan melayu sekarang. Haha.Ni lah namanya Dunia Akhir Zaman ye. Hmm. ANYWAY!!!!Bloody funny lah this day. I woke up, thinking I peed in my sleep, cause my pants on the right of my thighs were wet, my bed too. I went to the toilet, touch my underwear, it was dry. Then I remembered, Mama(my cat) woke me up earlier, wanting to go out, but I was just so tired, I just slept off. HAH. She took revenge on me and peed on my bed..DAMN...So, there goes my day answer of 'what am i gonna do today'. HAHA. I washed my duvet, my bedsheet and my pants. Put it to dry, cooked lunch, washed the toilet..Somehow, when alone at home, I love doing housework. I love it when people don't see me doing work. Hahahaha... Then, I saw a misscall, from a landline number from Ampang. BAMMM, my heart knew it was Fairview International School, cause I was pretty confident I SCORED the interview..HEHEHEHE....So I called back, yeap, she said 'CONGRATULATIONS', and I was just smiling.....hahahaha... Right after that, I called dad, then mom, then tried calling Nadia, but no answer, so I texted her instead. It all went with 'Guess who's gonna start paying for her own life now?' YEAPPP!!!!OMG OMG OMG, Im gonna have to start paying my education loan, my car loan, my cat's food, my toiletteries, my clothes, my dosh, my petrol, my toll, ARGHHHH, my my my and myyyyyy....HAIYAAAAA~ COMMITMENTS!!! See, that's why I don't wanna get married, cause if not, I'm gonna have to pay for wedding, then share money with husband, then baby's pampers, baby's this, baby's that..FUCK ALL THAT...hahahaha...

Yeah, I guess that's it for the updates.. Hmmm... Hope to update soon. Thanks for reading =)

u kno u love me,
x.o.x.o.