Updates - June and its curse...

June was suppose to be a great month...Recovering after the incident that occurred 2 years ago, where I lost my Rasta a day after my birthday.... 


I thought things would change...


But, little did I know, it has officially become  a point of curse in my life.


27th June 2010 my birthdate.
28th June 2010 - Lost Rasta
27th June 2012 my birthdate.
28th June 2012 - Muffin died


Yeap, this year, 2012, again, a day after my so called suppose to be a wonderful day, the day I celebrated being older, I lost another baby of mine. It was scary.


That evening, I let all the cats out of their mansion, they were happy running around. I saw a male stray cat (bad cat who fights with mine), walking in my house compound, I chased it, it ran to the back. Then I let it be, coz I felt bad if I chased it away, it is homeless.... Then, while I was sitting laughing with my parents at the garden, that stray had came to attack my cats. It 1st attack Muffin, and she ran under Tash's car. Maddox had stopped that fight by interfering, and now, Maddox and the stray was in a war. While I ran towards them, for the 1st time in my life, I witness Mama jumping in the fight aswell, like she was protecting her babies.By the time I reached there, one side of my slipper was already in my hands, waiting to throw at the stray, but still hesitating because of pity, yet, was doing the 'shoohh' sound. The war ended for a while, coz the stray ran, but Maddox had to chase after it, do did I, to chase after Maddox, so he won't hurt himself :P They fought till I had to just throw the slipper on the stray, and the stray ran off. There I was, nurturing Maddox, his chest was pounding so fast, and I could feel his heart has been pumped into a larger size. I carried him to sit on the bench by the pond, in front of mommy. But mom called Muffin out. See, I did not actually saw her being attack, so I thought she ran to hide because she was scared. Muffin is a timid and shy cat, who does not really mix around. She's always so independent. 


But there she was, walking out from hiding, as she walked across the drain, she just fell, weak, like her muscles had all gone. I ran towards her, carrying her, comforting her on the bench in front of mom, by the pond. Mom and Dad told me to feed her some water, coz she's just scared. And while I was about to place some water into her mouth, she bit me, so hard, I thought she was going to chew my flesh out. But no, she was going to die.


And there I was, screaming, crying, but the truth, it wasnt the pain on the hand that hurt most, it was having to see her, have her heart attack, dying there, in pain.


That is the worst death I have ever faced in my life so far.


Muffin will always be in my heart, I hope these scars last forever... I guess it was worth it, to let her bite me, to ease her pain of dying...


I will always heart you Muffin, whereever you are, and I hope one day, we will meet again.


With love,
xoxo.

Poem Time : About Us

Specially for Abang Arrow, Fantasy, Rasta, Soxy, Muffin, Kitty, Boboy, and those who has left me for heaven long time ago....


About Us


There's a story,
About Us,
About you and me.
There's a story,
About our times together,
When you were always here to take pain away,
When you would lay on me, staring into my eyes.
There's a story,
About the past,
When you were still around,
Now there's no more story left about me and you,
Coz you have gone away,
Far from beyond,
And I'm not strong to carry on.
There's only one story left,
It's about my lonely heart...


I will always love them, even if death do us apart...


<3,
Nathra ND