-perhaps-

im sitting in the dark,
im trying to figure out this life,
i cant find my path,
i cant understand life,
i dont know what i want,
what i want to be,
if i ever know about it,
how am i going to complete it,
im normal..not disable,
then why cant i live normal?
why cant i be asured of my life?
maybe i should end this life,
but then,i still have my loved ones,
they are there for me..
my family,my pets,and my special friend..
perhaps i shall change,
i must try achieving dreams,
after all...i still have my loved ones...

-created on 8th june 2003-

-feelings-

i feel like im alone,
i dont know why,
i feel tired of this feelings,
i want to get away,
from this feelings that is creeping in me,
i cant concentrate in life,
i dont know what i want,
i cant sleep at night,
i cant live my life,
i feel alone,
i feel bored,
i hate this feelings,
i want to run away,
far away from this feelings,
maybe i should hide in the jungle,
or run away to the sea,
perhaps i will forget this feelings then,
i hate the way it comes in me,
it conquers my body and soul,
this feelings make me hate myself, people and the world,
i hurts me inside,
till i hate to live,
and i dont want to stay alive,
because i cant find my path,
i feel bored and tired of this feelings,
i want to run away,
away from this freaky feelings,
that has been in me for a long time...

-created by me on 8th june 2003 at 12.24am-

-confuse-

im just a girl,
who shares a part of this world,
with the people i dont even know,
with the animals i like..

but somehow,
i cant find my destiny,
i dont understand the world,
i cant find my path..

i dont know why im here,
in this world that will end,
why must i share this world,
what is the cause i am here?

but however,
i feel thankful to be here,
cause i can fight back,
for the rights of these animals..

maybe that's why i am here,
to fight for animals,
to stand by their sides,
when they are weak..

i really love them,
they are innocent,
they are just a part of this world,
and i believe that this world are theirs..

only humans who say,
as if this world is theirs,
as if they are greater than anything,
but actually,they are the weakest..

they are humans who dont realize,
with all the pleasures they have,
they forget who they are,
and tend to rule..

but i will somehow,
help these animals,
to carry on conquering,
this world of theirs...

-created by me on 3rd june 2003 at 11.05pm-

-mother-

mother...
you are my heaven,
you brought me up with tender care,
you shared all your tender love,
you put me in a safe condition,
you are always there to support me...

mother...
i know it was hard for you giving birth to me,
i know your kind heart cries when i hurt you,
i know deep in your heart,you suffer,
i realize the troubles i gave you,
but i still attempt to do it...

mother...
no matter how much you scold,
no matter whatever you do,
i know whatever you done is for me,
i remember all those times i used to hurt you,
i remember all those times i cheated you...

mother...
i just want you to know,
no matter how much i hurt you,
no matter how much i made you cry,
you are still my mother,
and no one can replace you...

mother...
you are the best,
you are more than a best friend,
i'm so sorry for what i've done all this years,
i want you to know that,
with all of my heart,i love you...

-created by me on 26/5/2003-

-once upon a time-

once upon a time,
it is very beautiful,
it is full of flora and fauna,
it is so clean..

once upon a time,
we breath clean air,
we drank clean water,
we listen to beautiful sounds..

once upon a time,
the rivers and seas was full of fishes,
the forest was full of creatures,
the sky was full of birds..

once upon a time,
it was a beautiful place,
it was the heaven for humans,
but now,what's left is more like hell...

-created on by me on 22nd may 2003-

-do you realize that?-

do you realize that,
that they are dying,
they are suffering,
and it is all because of you?

do you realize that,
you took away their home,
you took away their family,
you ruin everything in their life..

do you realize that,
that we need tghem,
that they are part of our life?
but you capture them..

do you realize that,
you treat them badly,
you hurt them,
you kill them..

do you realize that,
they are part of this world,
we share the world with them,
you suppose to protect them...

do you realize that..
they need our love,
they need our care,
they need freedom...

do you realize that,
you are hurting them,
you are losing them,
and you will regret when they are gone...

-this poem is for all humans-
-stop cruelty to animals-
-created by me on 20th may 2003 at 9.05pm-

-teacher-

dear teacher..
in class,
you are the rose among the thorns,
because you are the smart one,
and we are the inarticulate,
you are like our mother,
who always cared and understand,
you never get tired teaching us,
you never get sick of our attitude,
you are always there when we needed you...
this day comes only once a year,
we will never get to do this next year,
as we will not see you again,
as we step into the world for a new challenge,
we would like you to know that,
we really appreciate you,
from the bottom of our heart,
we will always remember you...
happy teacher's day...

-created by me,specially for teacher's day on the lastyear b4 i graduated in highschool,on 12th may 2003-

-the world-

the world is a beautiful place,
it is where we live on,
it is full of nature,
it is full of joys...

the world was once full of happiness,
but now is has turned into a disaster,
it has been destroyed totally,
destroyed by our own hands...

we are running out of time,
to be in this world,
so come and join our hands,
to save this polluted world...

-created by me on 7th may 2003-

baby arrow n bunnie..

once upon a time,there lived a huge cat named arrow.he was so sweet,and one day,he fell in love with a bunnie..they played all day and all night,running around freely across the field..then,they both climb a mountain,and found an old wooden house..arrow told bunnie not to go in,but bunnie was anxious to find out what was in there..arrow forced bunnie to go home with him,so they left for home..the next morning,arrow woke up from sleep and couldnt find bunnie anywhere,and he guessed that bunnie had went to the old wooden house..bunnie did went to the old wooden house..bunnie was walking in and saw a witch casting spells on little 7dwarfs..bunnie got shock and accidently shouted.the witch heard her and cast a spell on her turning her into a teddybear..the witch then threw bunnie outside the door..arrow otherwise,rushed to the mountain and was heading to the old wooden house..he then found bunnie,on the road,turned into a teddy bear..arrow was so sad....he then brought the bunnie back home...arrow lived with bunnie and never let bunnie out of his sight...even when he is sleeping.....-the end-

p/s:this is a picture i captured while arrow sleeping with the bunnie...so sweet right?poor bunnie....

hahaha...funnie story...huhu....

-created by me on 20th november 2006-

-all my life-

all my life,
i only wanted happiness,
all my life,
must be full of fullfillness,
i was just hoping,
for a miracle to happen,
that would probably change my life,
that would probably make things better,
when i think about it,
what i know is that,
all my life,
it has been full of tears,
it's sad and i feel like a stranger,
a stranger to this world...

-created by me on 27th april 2003-

guess that's how break up ends...

i broke up....at last...im happie...but i dont know y,i just feel so sad deep inside me...i dont love him anymore...but,y am i feeling so shitty rite now?y?i wish i wuz sent into a time demention where i can turn everything around...back to my childhood days...and make everything right....be smart at school,never have a bf at all,make my parents save up 4 my studies...haha....easy 4 me to say all that,but,never easy 4 it to be done...haha...funnie ekk how life cud be....wow....rite now,im just thinking,thinking hard bout what happen....y am i regretting breaking up...hmm....stupid shit laa...shitty shit...fuckin shit...gosh...bloody hell....owh no,y am i cursing rite now...gosh...nutcase..ahahhaha....see,now i feel like laughing at all that has happen...it all happen in this past 20 years...damn..i shouldnt have been born...haha...im such a nutcase....huhu...i wasted all my life wasting time...haha...wow,that's d best sentence ever made by me..huhu....see,im going gaga...aiyoyoo...owh,yesterday,i watched free willy...damn i wish i had a whale...and the whale wud be my best friend...or a horse...but by best friends are all cats...i dont really have a human fren...my sister only,she's my best bestest fren ever...wow...i love her....she's d best...tassia...goshh...amazing person..the rest of my family,hmm...i rather not start shit bout them....that's it...no more shit to write...guess that's it...maybe,break up ends with sadness....rite?guess that's how break up ends.........

-written by the complicated me,on 19th november 2006-

-everyday life-

im sitting outside my house,
watching the outmosphere of life,
this what happens in everyday life,
kids with their football lessons,
skaters with their skating sessions,
and me, doing nothing except watching,
all i wanted was nothing but to play,
i'm an adult on the outside,
but i'm a kid in the inside,
im sick of this heavy life,
just waiting for the time,
the moments of my life,
to enjoy in my own ways of life...

-created by me on 27th april 2003-

-if-

if only i was a bird,
living outside the window,
chirping all day long,
flying freely across the country..

if only i had wings,
i would fly everywhere,
meeting new people and places,
that would be a great explore..

if only i was a fish,
swimming freely in the oceans,
with no place to go,
and no one to face..

if only i had fins,
i would swim everywhere,
meeting new species,
that would change my whole life..

if only i were to be what i wanted to be,
i would be free from paranoids,
i would probably have a better life,
the life that would set me free...

-created by me on 27th april 2003-

-miserable life-

i've been crying all day,
in this rainy evening of friday,
there's not much days left,
to step on a new stage of life,
i've been looking for a chance,
to be loyal to God,
but i often fail the course,
so,i would perhaps be,
much of the old me,
who will die in pain,
suffer all day and night,
i tried to think about the last time,
when i last had a good time,
but at this moment,
my life is already miserable...

-created by me on 27th april 2003-

-life-

i'm sitting here in the dark,
all alone in my room,
i'm thinking about life,
that will soon be doomed..

my life was once great,
it was once a happy story,
but now what's left is,
nothing but misery..

i'm waiting here all alone,
waiting for someone to save me,
i need to be free,
to feel what's left for me..

i feel like i'm paralysed,
my body is tied up,
i cant bear the pain,
to suffer again and again..

-created by me on 27th april 2003-

-sisters-

sisters..
they are there always,
they will always be around you,
they share your joys and pains..

sisters,
no matter how much you hate them,
you will always love them,
you will always praise them..

sisters,
they will be there when you are sick,
they will also be there when you are dying,
they will share the pain with you..

sisters,
if they are far away,
on a holiday or studies,
we will then be apart,
but they will always remain in my heart..

sisters,
they will help you in all ways,
even if they have to lie,
even lying to parents,
they will be there,
FOREVER...

-created by me on 18th april 2003-

-love-

love..
it is a beautiful feeling,
it is romantic,
it comes when we fall for a living creature,
it can be humans,
it can be animals..

love..
it can destroy a person,
in just a flash of light,
it can cause death,
to a person who suffers,
from an unreciprocated love..

love..
when the beloves leaves and never returned,
it is to be an absurd,
it is a feeling that will capture us,
and drown a person in love..

love,
it can be sweet,
it can be nice,
but remember,
it can be harmful..

-created by me on 17th april 2003-

-Friends-

friends..
havings friends sometimes are troublesome,
we fight among ourselves,
like kinder kids,
but somehow,
we will get back together..

friends..
they are there when i am sad,
they are there to share my joys,
they lend me their shoulders,
when i shed my tears..

friends..
we spend our mornings in school,
we spend our evenings together,
only at night we dont see each other,
we spend our weekends together,
we entertain ourselves forever,
and we will be friends forever..

but suddenly..
it suddenly changes into fear,
when we dont see each other,
we have our own paths,
to plan our own future..

but no matter how far we are,
i will always remember,
those times we spent together,
those memories we shared together,
it will always be with me,
FOREVER...

-created by me on 17th april 2003-

Sometimes...Life...

Sometimes...
Sometimes I feel like running away,
Running away from parents,
Running away from friends,
Running away from problems and troubles,
Running away from life,
Keep on running forever..

But all this is a part of life,
Facing all the problems,
Solving all this games of life,
Completing the whole course of life,
Living out this hard life..

Sometimes..
Sometimes I feel like dreaming,
Dreaming about a great life,
Dreaming about a big house,
Dreaming about a great family,
Dreaming about great days,
Keep on dreaming..

But to think about all this,
This is just games of life,
About God's games,
About God's tests,
And we got to end it in God's way..

-created by me on 17th April 2003-