crapping 101 #58 - Addiction to Rescuing.

My addiction - RESCUING.

Yes, my parents get annoyed, but all they can do is yell and scream, but nothing more.

And when I say Rescue, it's not just picking up a cat from the food stalls, eventhough I have done that before. But, what I actually do, is, to actually endanger myself, just to give these innocent little creatures a place to call HOME, someone to love them. Yes, they don't go for regular check ups, they only go for emergency cases, like when they are sick or so...But they get a place to call HOME, they get food, they get to learn to live with others, equal love. What more can they ask for.

Strays. People kick, beat, torture them. They never asked to be strays.

But it all starts when human started to abandon one, which eventually, leads to, million and trillion of them. It's different if they castrate them, then abandon, which is still actually a very sick thing to do, but way better then letting them to keep on littering.

Yeah, so, my addiction, is like how a junky need its drugs. I just can't see cats being strays, even dogs. If I could have dogs, I would have had so many of them. LOL. Even now, I have 12 cats, feeding 2 stray cats, 7 hamsters, 3 tortoise - 1 was rescued, fishes and other creatures living around my house. LOL. I am proud to say, I am an animal lover and I love people calling me mother cat, coz my cats do actually listen to me, and adapt to me very well. I wish to have a zoo :P

Now, I'm saving up, very slowly, to renovate their lil bungalow into a mega huge bungalow, with 3 storeys tiers.. Hope by next year, it will be done.

Till then...

u kno u love me,

-x.o.x.o.-

crapping 101 #57 - Will he be that?

Today...

Someone told me about Kelantan men. This and that. Which honestly, made me freak out a lil.

So, after my friend left, I called my boyfriend. I asked him if he was going to be that one day...

What my friend told me, is that, Kelantan men, will someone, want to marry a Kelantanese. Either they would marry a 2nd wife, or, they divorce and marry a Kelantanese.

So, my psycho mind, had been thinking since then, is that true? Hmm... I don't know how I would respond, if ever one day, that happen. Maybe I might cut his dick off, FOR REAL, or get out of that relationship and find a new husband, or just be emo..I dont know. I really cant say. But what I can say is that I am afraid of the future. I don't want a screwed up marriage life. I've seen enough. Marriage that's fucked up... I hope I wont go through all that. Let it be fights, but not till the marriage have to end.

Anyway, what I hope most is that my boyfriend, won't be that kind of man. I hope he will be a good husband and a great daddy to our children. I don't want a man full of drama and fake. So, I hope, he will be the perfect other half of me. Because as it is, I'm pretty sure he can guide me through life and bring me to the right path to Allah.

I was really thankful, the day I met him. For the first time in my life, I cried thanking Allah that my boyfriend was sent to me. Haihh... Indahnya hidup ini :)

Anyways, here are the few transformation I'm about to go through.
1. Cut hair (done) and colour it to a very dark brown.
2. Quit doshing, or at least, slow down on it.
3. Wear a tudung. :)
4. Go for Islamic studies.
5. Dance class - aerobics, another way for lazy people who don't wanna go to the gym ;P
6. Change my way - Thoughts, Feelings.

Yeap, for now, that's the 6 transformations I must go through. Hope it all work out well.

Till then...

u kno u love me,
-x.o.x.o.-

Crapping 101 #56 - I have no idea...

WOW!! Feels like been years since I last updated my blog....

So, I have a new job, technically, not really new, been 3 months... I'm now working in a hospital, yeah yeah, I know, a designer in a hospital...whatttt... but hey, peeps, EVERY COMPANY NEEDS A DESIGNER occayyy.... :)

Neways, work is awesome. For the 1st time in my life, I can actually say, "Hey, I love my job!" They make me feel like a designer. I'm starting to feel like a designer too. FINALLY! Thank God! They love my job, not only my boss, the doctors too! YEAY!

And, yes, my love life is getting better, I think. I found someone who could love me and accept me. And, he fits the criteria I prayed for. Yeap, it's funny how I met him. Insyaallah, he will be my husband. He can change me and bring me to the right path. But, yeah, everytime there's a but ya? But, he's younger to me 5 years. Will the age difference be a problem? Maybe it is? He's 21 but acting like 26, I'm 26 acting like 21...Haa...I have young blood in me, and he's being very uncle2. LOL. But, when I met him, for the 1st time in my life, I actually cried thanking God for what God has given me (apart from my babies...)

Now, he's changing from whom I actually 1st met. I'm coping up with accepting the changes. Yeah, sometimes I get pissed, but when I'm alone, I sit and think about it, I am also changing my self, to accept him. Coz I choose him, Coz God brought him to me, so, I have to deal with it, Im saying this in a good way :)

Erm, oh, I actually found a cat, Sophie, a long furred cat, she was perfecto! She does her business in d toilet, waits for me before going out, very disciplined. But then, one day, she went missing :( Was sooo sad. Even till today, I'd still pray she'd come back and that I'd meet her again.

Shoots, since the death of my neighbour's dog, BeeMan, I miss him so much till today. URGH!

Ya, and I found another cat, medium long fur, took her from a Tomyam shop in Ampang. At first, she had trouble living with my other cats, now, she's coping up well. I named her Darling, coz she only response to that name.... Sigh~

There was something that happened recently, something I did a month ago, I'd rather not say what. But, I hope God could forgive me for what I've done. I'm hoping to forget that day...I wish I cud erase my memories just for that period of time. Sigh* T.T

Anyways, so far so good. I've stopped my depression pills, on my own, after I met my boyfriend. I feel partially completed in life, but one more step to go before I completely feel satisfied with life - Marriage.

I now want a baby so badly. I wanna play dress up with him/her. I wanna bring him/her up in a good way. I already have names for them too :) And, I have planned how I'm going to bring him/her up, like how I heard an Ustaz was saying.

The 1st 7 years - love him/her, treat them very manja'ly...

The 2nd 7 years - beat them if needed, be strict to them...

The 3rd 7 years - be friends with them, share problems with them...

The 4th 7 years - guide them, but let them fly...

Yeah, sometimes I do listen to the IKIM.fm....It's a good channel... :P

Anyways, gotta go now...Will update again next time. Daym, need to write more poems again! Miss writing, and ARGH, need to continue my novel!!!!! LMFAO~

Till then...

u know u love me,

-x.o.x.o.-