bullshitting 101~#17

kadangkala, kehidupan ni, xdalah indah mana pun,

dan keinginan kita, xkesampaian,

dugaan dugaan,terpaksa kita lalui,

untuk apa semua tu?

haa,sebenarnya, semua dugaan tu, diberi Allah S.W.T.

untuk lihat kekuatan dan ketabahan kita,

dan juga, semua tu, menjadikan kita lebey kuat dan tabah...

sakit tu memanglah sakit,

kalau xrasa kesakitan tu, camne kita nak kuat and tabah,tul x?

just like, kalau dah terhantuk, baru nak sedar,

kita, kalau xkena skali, kita xkan sedar kan?

dah terkena, baru sedar, tul x?

actually, post kali ni,

aku pun xtau ni boleh membantu korang2 ke tak la,hehe..

tapi, maybe it can put some sense in your head la..hmm..

well, 23 taun aku hidup,

about 1st half tu, it was all pure happiness la,

the other half tu, dah mula brubah, jadi smakin perit..hehe..

maybe, sbb, as we grow older, we know more shit bout life kan?

hmmm..

we grow and we can think on our own,

we see what's happening around us..

maybe sebab tu gak lah, i have gone thru pahit manis kehidupan la kononnyer..

haha..

well, its 5.23am now,

been having hard time to sleep past few weeks,

somehow, facebooking and chatting made me wanna write this post..huhu..

neway, that's all i guess for now..

will update again..

oh,btw, ive been thinking of having another blog la,

photography blog..hmmm...so, wait for that blog la ye peeps..

u know u love me,

-xoxo-

news flash about ied~

well,

after few months of breaking up,

i told my friend who is his neighbour to tell him that i want to give back his stuff,

and i gave my friend the script..hehe..

also,to ask if he wants me to give him directly the stuff (so that i could meet him) or if he wants her to just pass it to him..

and sadly, he wanted her to pass it to him...

wow,

and till today,

i still wonder,

what did i do wrong that he didnt even looked at my face that day that he dumped me..

but then again,

i am coping up with it all

im doing quite well now forgetting him..

i'd say, i forgotten him about,ermmm,70% now..

that's good right?hmmm..

but still, the question is bothering me,

what the fuck did i do wrong..

see readers, i just need to know my mistake, so that, i wont repeat the same mistake with others..

we do learn from mistake right?but how am i gonna learn if i dont even know that mistake..?

hahahaha...hmm..

-xoxo-

bullshitting 101~#16

MEN

my topic today is->MEN

they are the the dangerous creatures of the world

they are like fire, we, girls, should not play around with them

when the fire is small, they are friendly

but when it goes big, they kill you in just a split of a second

they are also like chipsmore biscuit, 'now you see,now you dont'

they come as they like, and they go as they like

they are just there to break hearts

to use us girls as their toy

they are hard as a rock

they have no feelings or what so ever

they are also, simply, dumb

unless you have a heart as a rock, do not play around with men

they can kill!!

this post, is actually, bout what i feel..

recently, i have a new friend, and of course, its a 'he'

after few days of being friends with him,

i seemed to be confused with him.

see, finally today, i got to view his full profile,

and, i see that he somehow flirts with god knows how many girls

and yes, he has the looks, he's cute,

then today also, finally i gotten to know that he likes me too,

but then,

i started to wonder again,

is it true?

if it is true, then why must he flirt with other girls right?

then i came to a conclusion,

that, he is just that kind of men whom i think, looks for the best.

but then again,

isn't it dumb to admit something if you are not sure of it?

HAIHHHH...

Therefore, i found out, that, MEN ARE SIMPLY STUPID.

-xoxo-

bullshitting 101~#15

recently, there's just so many things that is and has changed in my life..

1st, i feel so much hatred in someone i use to know...so much that i dont even care and i dont even wanna hear a single thing bout the person. it annoys me to even think bout that person, what more to hear news bout that person...

2nd, im recovering from the breakup..im kindda coping up very well so far.. soon, i know i'll be able to go find him, look him in the eye and give his teeshirt back..huhu...

3rd, ive became an aunt to a beautiful baby boy at 8.20pm on the 15th of september 2009, my sister gave birth..awwww...but because i heard her shout, shoots,im thinking twice bout getting married in future now...ngeeeee...

4th, 1st day of my class, advertising visual, i have already felt so difficult..well, i hope i can go thru it..hmm..

5th, Eid celebration is justttt around the corner, im so excited for the money and the visiting and the eating, butttt, i feel something is missing, she's my heart, the one i grew up with, the one i rest my head on when we go for far trips, the one who i first called when i had my 1st menstrual cycle, the one who played with me always, she's like my twins even though she's older than me...tasha..hmm..i miss her loads..she's in abudhabi now..hmm..maybe i feel sad because already i had to celebrate without her for 4 years..and now,again? haihhh...sad sad...

neway, my brains are not functioning sooo well now to write more nonsense..hehehe...so,later ya...

-xoxo-

bullshitting 101~#14

yes,

im still hurt with him leaving me just like that,

yes,

i still miss and love him and can't seem to easily fall in love again with other guys,

yes,

i've change since he left,

yes,

im still wishing he would come back to me...

no,

i will not give up easily on life just because he left,

no,

i won't be the same person i was before,

no,

i won't forget him, ever,

no,

i will not quit everything just because my relationship failed..

the yes's and the no's i vow..

i will be a better me through all this failure...

-xoxo-

bullshitting 101~#13 - STILL HOLDING ON!!

well, 8th september 2009, my new life starts here, again...

im entering 3rd year of college diploma life..

honestly, i still can't believe i lasted that long in college..due to the past and laziness..hehe..

but yeah, eventhough i've complained so much about how hard and how much i hate studying, but it's amazing, i'm still proud to say, im still a college student bebeh!!woohoo..and booyaa to all of you who didn't thought i'd make it this far!!hehe...

and, here, i would like to say, im still standing still holding on to that thin thread, and i will last till i finish my degree and masters no matter what!!!weeeeehoooo!!!

-xoxo-